Sharing Grief or Something

If I should weep, my tears do not come from the likes of beaten men who have tried to climb mountains and failed; crossed fiery deserts and died of thirst. If I should weep, know that my tears are from love — the kind that whispers and yearns and protects and always perseveres. That’s an … Continue reading Sharing Grief or Something

Staring Grief: To Be or Not to Be

The sun is setting. The end of a day. A week, a life. The skies explode like the effects of bullets and mandibles — reds and oranges and bits of blue. I didn’t even know the brain was blue, unless you count the melancholic part, which I don’t. That part is more reds and greens … Continue reading Staring Grief: To Be or Not to Be

Sharing Grief: First Stones in Glass Houses

There was once a little girl who grew up in the most beautiful manor, high on a hill overlooking her father’s dominion. It was made almost entirely of mirrored glass, so that her father, an evil sorcerer, could easily keep track of his subjects’ whereabouts and behaviors. As soon as a transgression was detected, the … Continue reading Sharing Grief: First Stones in Glass Houses

Sharing Grief: Perseverance DOES NOT EQUAL Perfection

If I live and die a thousand lives, they would not be enough to contain love.  If each life, a thousand years, and each year, a thousand moments (well, 525,600 minutes, plus leap years and so forth...really loses the poetic quality. Thanks a lot, Rent. Jk. I love Rent.) But still, if I lived a … Continue reading Sharing Grief: Perseverance DOES NOT EQUAL Perfection

Sharing Grief: It’ll Never Be the Same

A quote from my (current) favorite post from my (current) favorite blog reads as follows: It’s going to hurt you every time you think of it. Sometimes this will happen at weird moments. When you’re least expecting it. When you encounter a small detail that only has the most passing commonality with what happened to … Continue reading Sharing Grief: It’ll Never Be the Same

Sharing Grief: Reclaiming Self Love

I had a strange thing happen today. Someone told me the following things (I'm changing them just slightly for identity protection): Turns Out... I'm fuckin' fabulous. Yes, I'm struggling with some self worth issues because I'm dealing with some recently uncovered trauma. Yes, I know every single one of my faults in excruciating detail. But … Continue reading Sharing Grief: Reclaiming Self Love

Sharing Grief: What Happened That Night

A little warning, first. This is the one where I explain what happened. It isn't pretty. It isn't nice. It isn't healthy. It isn't good. I made mistakes. I did bad things. And right now, I am gonna write about some of them. Gotta gotta be downBecause I want it allIt started out with a … Continue reading Sharing Grief: What Happened That Night

Sharing Grief: The Top Ten Ways to Occupy a Sleepless Night!! (You won’t believe #11!)

Consider all the ways that you could off yourself if you hadn't made that pesky commitment to life!Begin writing a blog about the top ten things to...well, whatever. Truly appreciate your friends' words. Get frustrated. OverthinkUnderthinkSideways Think (really, the last three don't matter. The point is to really get inside your head and kick the … Continue reading Sharing Grief: The Top Ten Ways to Occupy a Sleepless Night!! (You won’t believe #11!)

Sharing Grief: Depression Takes a Snow Day

Depression Doesn't Take a Snow Day I don't know why, but today started out really well. I mean so well, that I thought I was out of this mess. I described it to a friend as the eye of a storm, which I realize is not very literary, but when you can finally breath, who … Continue reading Sharing Grief: Depression Takes a Snow Day

Sharing Grief

I’m in the middle of a mental health...not “crisis,” for that implies that I’m about to do something dangerous. And I’m not. But I am grieving. I am in a bad place. The Bad Place, I call it, actually, but it’s way less funny than any motherforking shirtballs. I’m not going to hurt myself or … Continue reading Sharing Grief